Too late to run

Too late to run.
Like the cracks of bottles when it hits the ground leaving a resounding fear so I saw my life break into millions. I was undeniably helpless now but I couldn’t see it.

The rush, the tension, and the need to do better engulfed the bitterness welling up from within me, I knew it and I was unapologetic about it “but I’m not ready yet…”
I could sense it catching up with me from miles away yet I managed to wave it off, it was a lot easier to just say, ‘I’m fine’, than to sit around feeling sorry for myself.

The first two weeks I succeeded in beclouding myself with the constant hustle bottled with the overwhelming need to do the needful to put something presentable on the table.

Yet stench still wouldn’t go away, it kept lingering on and on in my head like a nursery rhymes my Mama sang while I was a baby ‘Bla bla black sheep, have you any woo….’

I don’t know how much longer I can do this, but I know I had to let the past be in the past. It lingered on, but this time around I have to be an adult, I have to use my head. Oh yes I looked bigger now, but I wished I could get back that joy I had lost trying to be bigger, even God couldn’t help me this time.

I knew I had to face my fears, and accept my faults and deal with it. I just couldn’t see myself move past, that moment, and day that turned me into a living-ghost. The pain was unceremoniously buried underneath the stress leaving me stuck. I couldn’t afford to open that door, it’s too expensive now.

I wish I could just move on as though nothing happened, I wish I could just loose my memory and start afresh, I wish…..!!!

I couldn’t help myself from feeling guilty, as I lived everyday dying slowly.
Lord! Where are you?

My Jewel

My jewel,
My crown,
My sunshine.
Times and seasons may come and go but I want you to know that I am always here for you.

Responsibilities and problems may come tearing and go but we will keep growing in love.
Fears and insecurities may arise scary but I stay.
It’s been three months now yet it seems like yesterday past, when you called and said I love you.
Closing the door of loneliness and uncertainty was harder when you were not here, but you came holding my arms tight shining firmly through the storm.

The drums are beating harder now, yet the journey keeps getting interesting by the day, glowing with your aroma intoxicates me more.
With you the laugh never grows soar.
This peace and love that overwhelms me never seems to run dry,
The perfect description of my prince charming.

With the signature of the spirit the flaming eyes of your love keeps unveiling the beauty within, exposing every flicking wrickle grown overtime. You ravashing every darkness that comes as a threat like it was nothing.

God is involved money can not be a barricade to our union, we understand the time of God is best and he will do it for us too in according to his perfect will.

Anointing power

Many people continue to ask, how do I walk into a new dimensions of operational anointing, i.e a deeper grace of the presence and manifestations of God in my life and ministry. For every level of annointing, their are *missions* to undergo and in such missions, *temptations, trials, persecution and tests* will always be involved. *Faith* in execution of such missions is the bedrock on which one moves.
I will liken it to *game levels* whereby you need to do certain things, acquire some gems and weapons to be able to proceed into another dimension of Grace. The major problem is that many do not know or listens to the giver and dispenser of the Grace.
Most believe that let’s just read the word of God, fast and pray and I will dive into that realm; *no* it doesn’t work like that. For every mission, the word is used as a sword or as a guide to know what next to do. I have come to the understanding that most times *characters, self-control*, are majorly things you may need in achieving another dimensions of grace.
Let’s take a look at *Joseph* who had to flee from immorality, be punished for sincererity and be elevated into new height of *deeper relevance* in his generation. The *three friends of Daniel* had to be persecuted saying *even If the Lord will not save us we will still not worship your god* and they overcame and were elevated. *Abraham* our father in Faith believed God and was elevated.
Many and countless men knew how the times work because they knew not just the word but also came to an understanding *that the word must be used as a sword and a guide*. We continue to have a growing generation that cries out *Lord give us fire* 🔥but don’t know how to protect the fire. There are moments prayer is needed, and when I say prayers I mean *dying in the secret place* that’s where your *patience in waiting* is weighed, valued and rewarded. Many because they operate in miracles, see no reason to *wait in prayer* anymore, unknown to them that they can’t generate *the code of the Portal*.
Most gets tired on the road and like Elijah, must continue *for the road is still far*. Seeding and almsgiving too is needed in most cases. When you pray and study alone may not lead you to another dimensions but *seeding and almsgiving* will push you to another length of honor and relevance in the body of Christ.
I won’t end without mentioning *humility and love* the two *superpowers* that teleports one to grace in total, *the summation and encompasment* of all ways.
If you are not ready to *sacrifice and develop a BURDEN* anointing will be far from you. We pray that God helps and grants us his Grace to fellowship and know and follow through Christ our Lord. Thanks

*::::::::Holyspirit inspires💯%*

Cost of obedience

“My Jesus Lord, obedience cost you your life, but for me it is just an act of faith. No more and yet how hard it is for me to bend. Remove the blindness from my eyes that I may see that it is you l, whom I obey. In everything Lord it is you.”

It is evident that our Christian life fellowship has altered in respect to the early Christians. Before, the Christians could prophecy and it would come to pass. But now it’s the reverse, it is high time for us to bend down on our knees and pray. Its about time we make it right with God.

It cost you nothing or temporal pain to obey God. Why not do it and enjoy everlasting happiness with Him.

10 R’s to revival

  1. Realization- before any sin leaves u it destroys u
  2. Recognition -acceptance of failures and faults.
  3. Remorse-the need to change. The feeling of sorry and regrets.
  4. Resolutions- suggest a way out
  5. Restitution-ready to give anything in place.
  6. Returning- the need to return to the right track.
  7. Reconciliation- coming back and reconciling ur old self with the new self.
  8. Restoration- regaining yourself to your normal state.
  9. Redemption -transformation in change.
  10. Rejoicing- rejoicing for the liberation from sins.

Some people in life sin not deliberately maybe it’s mistake.

“Let there be light!”

God in his heavenly ways breathe on the dark world and gave it life. The world and everything in it is filled with such a dangerous darkness in various forms. Amongst men,and even in the heart of men.

Genesis 1:2, and he said let there be light, and there was light.

But God says today, let there be light. Just as light and darkness can not coexist. You can either choose to be in the dark or in the light.

Here God is offering a way and a chance to be the best we can be in the light. He is giving us a light to a perfect destination, a light to shine our path, a light to direct us to the right way and fulfilled life.

Once I found myself in a condition of loss, nothing mattered to me anymore. I lost all hope and faith in everything and anything. I felt like a garbage waiting to rot, and there was nothing to live for.

Not until I heard these words, “Let there be light…” It struck me I was in the dark and I am being offered a glaring light. Instantly I felt God’s presence in me. I received that light was kindled in my darkened heart and that changed everything. Everyday when I recount that moment I can’t help but appreciate the light, I constantly strive not to loose that light ever again.

You too should open your heart to receiving that light he is offering and experience a drastic change in everything.

“After all, without darkness there will never be light, neither will there be such need for the light.”

YCS – A message from Fr. Donatus Ogunleye

Discussion like this much be approached with objectivity not sentiment.

1. The new ecclesiology teaches that the Church as the Body of Christ comprises of “The People of God”. As such, the Church is not just the clergy but laity inclusive. In fact, the laity dominates. So whatever failure or success the Church has, we are all responsible for it.

2. Again, Vatican Council II teaches that “The family is the domestic Church”. There is nothing the Pope, bishops, priests or church officials can do if the families fail in their responsibility to lay the foundation of the faith well in their children or the family at large. Any committed Catholic you see, the credit it to God first, the family before the Church. The family is the First Church just as it is the First School. Many of the problems associated with the Church today started as family problems and left as burden for the Church to carry. If you have “Christian” parents in a family, the chances are there that you have “Christian” children and I’m not just talking of Church Goers!! The Church is not a solution solver but salvation seeker. If it were a solution solver, Jesus would have solved all problems from day one. It takes a faithful Catholic family to produce faithful Catholic children.

3. One cannot deny the fact that there are areas of imperfections as far as the Church is concerned. Imperfections abound because the Church we belong to is a pilgrim Church not the Church triumphant. Some of the points made by some of you are very true but some are exaggerated. However, anybody that thinks it’s only the Catholic Church that has problems should go and try other places where no fault can be found. The bigger the number the bigger the problem.

4. Many of the contributions above also reveal to me that many people are never grateful to God and the Church. I just celebrated my 12 years as a priest out of which more than 11 years have been dedicated to serving the young people as chaplain in our diocese. It was not my family or village people that appointed or assigned me to YCS but the same Church some of you are accusing now of not doing well or caring for the youth. So whatever I have done is not for myself but for the Church. Though I’m aware that many even on this platform feel that Fr. Donatus has not done enough. Today, I would let them know that I’m not ready to meet anybody’s expectations but God’s only. So also do many of you feel towards many priests. It’s very easy to condemn other people. But don’t forget, the little you have received, how grateful are you for it? Back to the definition of ecclesiology. Everyone on this platform should ask himself or herself how involved are you in the life of the Church? It is easy to point accusing finger at others. I remember last year when I had to send appeals out to a good number of you to help for YCS convention so that what you benefitted in the past, other students following you can also benefit. Only a very few, about 5 out of over 100 old ycsers I sent chats to responded. Some would claim they are students while some would tell you they have no work yet but we all know the truth. It was just a token of 3k that I sought from each person for over a period of 6 months. No matter how poor you can be as a student or unemployed fellow, if there is sense of commitment and appreciation, nobody would not be able to raise 3k in 6 months. Even among those that helped, the story still went round town that I was pressure rising people to donate money and that I don’t care about them but it’s only when I need help I start running after them. For the many years I have worked as YCS Chaplain, it is the same story by even parents of some of you who think that by helping YCS, it is Fr. Donatus they are helping. Many of you here have attitude of not appreciating people’s efforts rather you castigate them without conscience. If not for this forum, I have never heard from a good number of you ever since you left Lokoja Diocese. You don’t also look back sometimes to know that even the priests also need encouragement and support, at least morally. All you want is that the Church must just be there for you always while you don’t want to care about her in return.

6. Check out the list on this forum, many are here that have never said anything since we started. They never made any contribution. Their voices are not heard. There are many here that majority of you do not know. Imagine if this were to be a parish setting, before you know they would say that it’s so and so person that the priest relates with or recognizes meanwhile they go hiding and unnoticed! So when such people leave the Church, many don’t get to notice. And I have also noticed that many people have left this chat room and none of you here has asked why they left. You feel so unconcerned each time someone leaves. For you, it doesn’t matter. Anybody can leave but the day you leave for any reason, you would expect Fr. Donatus or any of the admin member to show concern just because it is you. You forget that what you do to others, nature would pay you back one day. This is exactly what happens in the Church. Before those that you know left the Church, many had left before them. But as “active” as you were or they were too, what did you do when they left? What effort did you make on your own to go after them or call the attention of the priest who may not be aware to it. And when he knows and fails to act, as a “faithful” Catholic, what other steps did you take? Frankly, it’s a societal problem that has become the problem of the Church somehow. When you are travelling on the road and see or meet an accident scene, most often, is it not just “Eyaaa” people say and continue their journey? Do you care to stop and help? Do you question the cause of such tragedy that others suffer at such moment? But God forbid you find yourself in such situation, you would want the whole world to come to your rescue. Our level of indifference and selfishness is so much. That accounts for our blame game all the time. No body wants to be responsible for anything. People feel pain only when it concerns them not when others are suffering. The same attitude many people display in this forum is the same attitude they display in the Church, yet the Church must keep seeking.

7. The way people talk about the Church and castigate her, they don’t do so about their individual family. If people can realize that the Church is a ‘Spiritual Family’, they would feel concerned more about her irrespective of the problems associated with her. There is none of our biological families without problems and challenges. You cannot be born into family and because of the misdeeds or misdemeanour of maybe the father or mother of the family, you would abandon the family for B or C or Z. Many people leave the Catholic Church because they never accepted her as a place to be. Majority that leave keep searching, changing from Church to Church forgetting or failing to realize that the problems is not the Church per say but their failure to accept and cope with the realities we equally face and cope with in our biological families.

8. Finally, no one can make bold to say that he or she has nothing to show for the good the Church has done in his or her life. You may claim that it is not sufficient but the truth remains, there is something in you that is Catholic, that belongs to Catholic and would remain of the Church forever and wherever you go! Above all, let us be guided by the words of Christ. “He who has no sin should be the first to cast the stone!” (Jn. 8:7). There is nothing anyone can say here about the Church that we are not all guilty of one way or the other. Charity begins at home. Let us begin here by changing our ways and attitudes. Let us not be indifferent! Let us be sensitive, let us be charitable with our lives, let us make sacrifices, let us not think of ourselves first, let us be converted, let us be open to others, let us stop discriminating, let us be involved and concerned about general good, let us be humble and meek, let us be kind in words and deeds, let us be positive and finally, let us be Catholic in truth and in practice!

Reverend Father Donatus O. Ogunleye is a rear gem. He is a guardian, a mentor and a role model to many youngsters. He touches lives in his own unique way not just by training many youths every year in the YCS conventions in Lokoja diocese and beyond.

If I say I will write about I will no stop. Although, hero’s are not celebrated until their demise. Father is indeed a legend and he deserves an applause for everything he is doing for the future leaders of tomorrow.

Thank you father, you inspire me a lot. And wherever I find myself in this world I am in your debt for grooming to be Godfearing woman I am today.

Easy to do nothing

It is high time we did more than just pointing an accusing fingers on others who trying make change in their own little way. It is no fault of theirs if they are getting it wrongly. It’s not everyone that can handle the weight of responsibility without breaking down once in a while. What right do we have to judge and criticize them. It is high time you starting making your own. It high you fit in their shoes and understand how tough or easy it is.

When people things well you should praise them for a job well them and they will do better next time.

And if they do things wrongly, it is easier to criticize them but the easy way is not always easy. Words can never be taken back.

So instead correct them with love and they would try their best not to break that trust you have in them.

Growing up as a child I was always too careful not to make a mistake or to do things wrong just so that I won’t be punished. And as a human being, I made many mistakes and my mum would scold me and even insult me in her anger. These insults never left me, they stayed with me till today, I always hear those angry voices in my head when I do something. Then, I would cry my life out till I slept off my sorrow.

But my Dad, when I grew older I stayed with my Dad. I observed that no matter how angry he was with my mistakes. He would give me an excuse( justify my actions with some understandable reasons) for acting that way. And conclude by saying, “you are better than this baby, I trust you would do your best next time”.

These words no matter how he says it, always comforts me and revives my fighting spirit. I always want to make him proud.

Let us do better than accusing others. Then we would all strive to be better.

Age is not just number

Age is not just numbers it is days of experience.

Looking back at my life, my goals and principles as a person. Looking at how much I have grown, the things I have learnt, the bridges I have crossed, the failures i have encountered, the relationships I lost and the ones I gained, from the last two years till date I can’t help but say there is truly a God in heaven. The God that rescues, saves and restores. This God gave me the hope in my darkest moment. This same God rescued me from falling into ditches and life threatening Asthma condition. And he has groomed me to be the woman I have become today. I can’t help but say Thank you lord.

I hear people say God is their saviour then I never fully understood until it came to my doorsteps where I needed to be crucified and published for my mistakes. I even condemned myself before anyone would and I didn’t expect less from anyone but God just came to my aid. He not only graciously save me he also took away the guilt, the condemnation and gave a chance to be better.

Indeed, there is a God in heaven.

Happy birthday to me.